The Drama of Being Me!

I am who I am and I am the way I am.

They tell me to change my way of being, obviously I'm not going to do it, why would I? Always on point and I don't know why.

My name is Natalia and I'm 22 years old. When I was a child, I was very submissive, quiet, and proper, a well-behaved girl. I never failed a single subject in elementary and secondary school. I was super calm, never talked back or responded badly to anyone, especially not to my elders. But I grew up, I grew and I developed, I formed my character and I did it very well. I spent a long time without saying anything and being told all sorts of things, hearing disrespect, comments about my body. And why about my body? Because I was skinny, I say 'was' because from my perspective and with the confidence I have today, I've made a lot of progress. 7 months ago I started going to the gym, I went regularly for 3 months then I stopped because I had to work, I came back 2 months ago and today I'm consistent. Similarly, it's said that you have to go for 6 months to be consistent and an average of 1 to 2 years to see results, but in 2 months I look in the mirror and I like my body, I like what I see, how I look, something I couldn't say before. Before, I was super skinny and constantly fought against my demons, against my thoughts, against my mind, against the shitty comments of others, those mocking laughs of people who are not part of my life and also of my family...